10/22/2006

Deepavali~ the festival of lights was okay.. Tried my best to enjoy!! Dunno why, jus dun feel the correct atmoshpere around!! Only wen i look at ma decorated house.. i have the so called feel, tat it is DEEPAVALI.. N i m suppose to be enjoying... It was very tiring.. had to help my mum to decorate the house with maroon colour curtains, i tink ma mum jus admirez RED!! Cos most of the decorative stuff was in red!! But it was b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l of course.. din go 2 much houses.. cos ma mum needed ma help.. I felt terribly bad tat i wasnt helping her ALOT tis time around, cos of WORK!! hate it 2 the core, tis is the 1st year tat on deepavali EVE i wasnt at home but in ma OFFICE, doing work for tat DUMBBELL!! I was too irritated with her attitute..damn irritated.. wen i tink abt it.. I saw most of ma INDIA-indian team memberz n colleagues making their way to the exit at about 1pm-3pm with their bags.. wherby i m was jus sitted down ther n watched tat sorrowful scene..wat can i expect.. i try ma best to remain calm... But shes jus too much... she din even haf the initiative 2 ask me to go back home on a HALF day.. atleast dun gimme X-tra work la..She din haf enough of me YET!! so she wanted to torture me even more... So she told me to finish of tat DUMB file b4 i leave.. i was SoOoo irritated!! Can u belive it.. it was deapavali eve.. A day indianz get to celebrate.. A so called regconised festival in spore and we get a public holiday.. But tis DUMBO doesnt even haf the basic etiquette 2 ask me to leave... I COMPLAINED all the way to ma 'FRENZ'- the ppl who enjoyed ma sorrows..they were sick of it 2.. but i really had no choice.. they told me to leave.. but i was too afraid.. tinks alr is cocked-up here.. wat more can i do.. She told me to finish off tat big file.. i was suppose to do last minute shopping wif ma family... n i was stucked in CRUELSOME LOGIC!! So i jus couldnt take it n i jus told her off!! I told her i had to leave..i had to go out wif ma family.. She still insisted on me doing tat file b4 i leave!! i m not being racist here.. but if it was the eve of CHINESE NEW YEAR would tat dumb bitch be sitting in tat chair.. i jus duno!! perhapz she would.. cos shes not married!!! N she doesnt wana enjoy!!! 5 more weeks 2 go.. jus cant wait 4 tis period 2 finish.. 2 go back to sch...

10/22/2006 11:46:00 пп
the scent still lingers

10/10/2006

Again i haf got a 3+ 4 a grade!! wat m i suppose to do?? I tried ma best to be NICE as possible!!! Perhapz its not meant 4 me!! seriously..M floating in thoughts!! wats gona happen in tis 7 weeks of IPP!! i seriously dun wana look ahead!! i m still in ma office!! In a dumb "fish tank", tats hw ppl call tis room.. cant WAIT its 8.29 now,still got half an hour to go!!Dunno how i plannignt o go also!! DEFINATELY i m NOT gona take a CAB!! Cos its 25 bucks from science park 2 to yishun St22...So cab is out of the question!! so wat else can i do?? walk home!!NOO!!All ma energy is DRAINED out!!So i m planning to take a cab to clementi mrt!!tats the best idea i can tink off!!! Saw ma team member LEAVING.. i remember his last words... "Bubye".. i could feel his presence S-L-O-W-L-Y moving away!! B4 he could leave i asked him 4 his number AGAIN!!Can u belive tis?? Me askin a GUY 4 his num!! i haf NEVER done such a tink in ma life.. But wat 2 do!! I couldnt help it!! Not becoz i was GATHAL or anything!! its becos i BADLY needed HIS supervision!! Cos i m taking OVER his workload!! N he tinks hes FREAKING hansem(haha he is thou),but still he ACT.. He din wan 2 gimme his num!!! i was NEVER embarassed until tis extent!!Dunno.. but i noe he will be back!! but i actually dun gain anythin by him returning back cos he wouldnt be in same team as me!! How sway!!He said he still haf got 1 month to come back!!So wen hes newly joinin i will b ready to leave i GUEZZ!! Cos it will be the LAST week of ma attachment!!Foo!! cant wait for the day as well!!Work is from Mon- Fri.. But as for me its Mon-SUN!! Can u belive tis!! Sat n sun is for me to go OUT!! i cant work in ma part-time job as tis ppl here wanz to TORTURE me even more.. So i dun haf a fixed schedule!! Liddat how 2 go work u tell me!! Aiyyo!! still got more to go!! but i tink i wrote alot alr... so Choaz!!

10/10/2006 08:23:00 пп
the scent still lingers

10/01/2006

10/01/2006 11:05:00 дп
the scent still lingers

Wat can i say 2 start of my so called tortures in ma company!! 1 of ma team memberz who was so helpful 2 me.. iz LEAVING.. m i considered lucky or not..And she gaf me a load of work which i haf no clue abt how to do!! i m SOO dead!! Suppose to finish the Design Specification by friday.. but ended up tat i haf to finish doing it TML.. Ma first WISH in ma wishList is to leave tis company...but wat can i say.. still haf got exactly 8 more weeks to go.. whic is 2 MORE months... cant wait for tis miserable life to finish... Cruel jokes -->frenz laughing--> Me wanting to CRY!! haha..Tis is wats happening 4 tis past weekz.. And i m SOO dead now.. As 2 pplz workload is gona come to me.. I m CONFUSED!! Ma another Team member sayz soemthing n does another ting.. i duno whic is whic.. But i hope tings come in MY way..as wat i m tinking..For those ppl who noe abt wats happenin in ma daily life.. would noe wat i m BOTHERED abt!! haha...

10/01/2006 10:51:00 дп
the scent still lingers